- Apr 14, 2019
- New Jersey
Here everyone, so I went to group therapy today and because everyone was stressed and talking about there problems.... now I’m stressed. Hearing what everyone said about “toxic” people in their lives, it really got me questioning. For example, I have a lot going on with my boyfriend. I am always telling him every thought that comes to my mind, to see if he’ll get upset over it. I don’t want him to be upset, but I just always am scared for that outcome, so I have to know right then and there. Like I’m engaged to him, and sometimes I wonder how I’ll be with him when we live together. I always have ROCD thoughts. I know there ROCD thoughts because they upset and scare me. I don’t want to hurt my boyfriend in any way. Plus I don’t want to loose him, I want to keep him in my life. I don’t like feeling this way, and I hate being triggered to feel this way. Does anyone have any tips on dealing with this stuff? I’m always fearful that because I feel this way and I have fears, I have to leave him because if that. I get scared to think what if our relationship is toxic 😔 I really do love him, and I want to stay with him. Can anyone help me with dealing with this, or have any tips. Let me know.