- Apr 14, 2019
- New Jersey
Hey all, I had a rough day today. Having the ROCD symptoms. I keep having the urge to tell my boyfriend everything that I think about, and when I don’t, I become fearful of what he could say or feel I need to get it out somehow. As a result of the compulsion I feel like I shouldn’t be in a relationship, and that if I end it I’ll stop being nervous with my boyfriend. Because of this, I keep wanting to end it with him, and it upsets me to think that. I don’t want to upset him or do that to him, but I was worried i only felt that way out of fear. Like I felt I only didn’t want to end it with him so there wouldn’t be any fighting. But I know if I go through with needing things it’s feeding into my OCD compulsions. Let me know what you all think!