I’ve had anxiety since I got into a traumatic accident when I was little. I broke my arm in three places. I was hospitalized and had surgery done. I suffered with panic attacks that lasted for hours. It felt I was admitted for three days but it was a whole week. After that I suffered with panic attacks outside of the hospital. I could control my anxiety and keep it in check for years. I was fine, up until now. I had a panic attack a month ago and I had to go to the er to calm down. After that day at the er, I had trouble eating. Everything I ate, I gagged up. I stayed hungry for awhile and I was also in fear of another panic attack. This eventually went away. And then around July 2nd I had really bad anxiety one night and I couldn’t sleep at all. I tried eating but I couldn’t eat at all. I was hungry and scared. I ate some. The following night I got two hours of interrupted sleep. The next night I decided to go to the er and get something to calm me down. They gave me Ativan and it helped me sleep for 4 hours. I tried sleeping last night and I only got about 2 hours. Tonight I’m in fear of having a panic attack, fear of not being able to sleep, and fearing that I cannot eat. I don’t know what to do. My body has lost complete motivation to eat and I’m honestly scared for my life. What the f**k should I do? Should I admit myself? I’m 20 years old and this timing is just awful.