Will let me say first congratulations, great job on being eight months. So you been thinking about relapsing lately. We will always have those sort of thoughts but please let them remain as they are, just thought. I completely understand the stress, anxiety and depression but we need to come up with better coping skills. Are you working the 12 steps? Bottom line, please don't let that eight months of sobriety go down the drain.
A strong dose of water soluble multi-vitamins should be taken when symptoms of relapse appear.
Also, keep in mind that your methadose doctor can prescribe you oxycodone or injectable hydromorphone for a condition called OUD (opioid use disorder). So if you know you will relapse you need to let your doctor know about your imminent intent to use so he can prescribe you pharmaceutical grade opioids of known doses. This is a harm reduction strategy known to considerably decrease overdose risk.
ghost_girl80, I don't know how you get rid of persistent feelings, but smashing stuff works for frustration for me (Not people/animals obviously). I feel similarly frustrated... Not sure if this helps but I'm (legally) high but still feel frustrated... -getting high would at most give you temporary restbite?
Hi Ghost girl-Think about the withdraw you went through and how today you are not suffering through withdraw. Giving into the drugs is only going to put you back in prison. It is hard to stop taking drugs when the urge hits you. Just take that urge and turn it into how you remember getting off the drugs. Relapse is not a choice right now. Give it time. Take care of your business with parole and if you want to stay out of prison just hang in there as a clean and sober person. Stay away from triggers people places and things that make you think about using. Do not write this off as when you are sitting in prison again you will have to come off the drugs and this is not so pretty. It may even be too late-longer prison term for actions committed while under the influence of drugs. Drugs are not your friend you know this so ran away from them and keep clean. The best of wishes during your hard ass recovery. You have already made it to 8 months this probably seemed impossible when you were in your active addiction. Hugs